For too long I've tried to be someone I'm not.  When you're trying to be someone you're not you often feel discontent, thinking that you have to be doing something else, leaving some things in life behind and starting other things.  Anyway, I'm happy to be me.  I'm happy that I am not trying to be someone else, or trying to be myself in 5 years time, or whatever time in the future, but that I am me now, in 2008, young, free and single.  And why is that?  Well, I could put it down to being full of caffeine (though I don't really drink that much of it) or due to the fact that I slept well, though that only partially explains it, or maybe a better reason would be because I've actually done something which I hadn't done in a long time.  Casting my burdens onto Jesus. 1 Peter 5:7 tells us we can do this in prayer, and maybe you might think that this seems a bit weird.  Maybe I'm weird, yet I have a heavenly father that cares enough about me that I can cast my anxieties onto him.

You see I've been reluctant to do this recently, because I was wallowing in self pity about a couple of things, but moving my eyes from those that are inward focussed to ones which are looking upwards has helped me to stop wallowing and to start praising the one who loves me.

God has been good to me, even when I am unfaithful and when I choose to ignore him.  He is gracious and compassionate, and will forgive those who have rebeled.  So now I remember that I'm blessed.

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